That’s the best I could come up with for a title, sorry. Haha. It’s about how I feel at the moment. So ready for all of this to end already. Ready for Brett to be home and ready to find out where we are going next. I am feeling beat down physically, probably because I am beat down emotionally and exhausted. It would be wonderful if everything would just go smoothly. But with kids, even under normal circumstances, that isn’t going to happen unless you take them to grandma or grandpa, or an aunt and uncle while you do the things you need to or want to do. I would love to go get my hair done and maybe go with a friend to the spa for a couple hours. I am stretched thin, not physically haha, I am working on that too.

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Brett has been deployed for thirty three days now. He got to work immediately upon arriving there. Had one day off a couple days later and has only recently gotten his second day off a few days ago. He has been working at least twelve hour days, maybe longer on some days. So he has been really worn down. He is the NCOIC, which is Non Commissioned Officer in Charge for the night shift. I told this to a friend of his who he worked with, and he said that Brett is the best man for the job. It made me feel proud to hear that about him.

I am glad that the base he is at is closing down because it means he may come home early (he says he may be home a month before my birthday!) but it also stinks for him too because a lot of the services are either gone or about to be soon. The post office closed there a few days after he arrived there so I sent out one large package to him. I figure I would rather send too much than not enough, besides there are plenty of people he can share with there. The chow hall may have already, if not it is soon. Internet in a lot of locations is gone. He found an area the other day that still has internet, which I hope it remains a little while longer so we can still Skype on occasion or at least emails.
Cailey has just been pushing every button she can. She has started to really rebel since Brett deployed. She misses him and is acting out because he is not here. We have gone two steps back with her being potty trained. I broke down earlier this week and bought pull-ups after I had to change her sheets 6 times in 2 days over the weekend. Even in early stages of potty training she was always dry when she woke. Now she won’t even be asleep when she does it (most of the time). I refuse to let her wear them during the day, only while in bed. I make her go before bed at night, and the other night 5 minutes after I shut her door she walks out to me to tell me she peed the bed. She had not even gone to sleep yet and was wearing a pull-up!! She has also been having accidents once or twice during the day as well. She was past that stage way before Brett left and now it has started all over again. She has been more aggressive and destructive.
In a 90 minute window Cailey managed to paint her toes and their nails (luckily for me that was it), after cleaning that up I find that she has spilled out contents of her bean bag chair in my office, I was not even done cleaning up the bean bag chair when she had an accident and got it on the floor (and it wasn’t just pee). At that point I put her in the shower to play and stay out of trouble while I finished cleaning messes. After shower I put her to bed and then found another mess she snuck in there with flashcards. Haha, that is just a taste from less than a whole day of the little storms she brews up. I don’t think I need to go into tantrums. I will say she is two and they are now magnified times two of Cailey proportions. That is all I will say about that, LOL.

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Colvin has been more easily frustrated. Well he has always been easily frustrated about little things that really shouldn’t be a big deal. But now it is more exaggerated. I received a phone call from the school nurse a couple weeks ago because Colvin had hurt his hand while getting ready to leave for the day. She said he stabbed himself in the hand with his pencil. He got mad when his folder would not go into his backpack as he expected it to. His hand is finally about healed up. Not sure what came over him, he has never done anything like that before. Luckily he hasn’t since either. Oh, and he also broke our kitchen cabinet door by swinging on it after being told multiple times of course not to do that. I think, more like I hope I have it fixed because they were new when we moved in two years ago. I guess time will tell. On a more positive note, he is doing well in school. I have not talked with his teacher in almost two weeks to know if there is any improvement in controlling his emotions in class. The only other thing that was an issue was that he has difficulty getting started on tasks but he seemed to be doing better. He has also been having spelling tests and so far both spelling tests he has taken he has gotten them all right! The photo next to this paragraph is a copy of his two spelling tests so far.

Even though they have been difficult little people lately, they do have their sweet sides. Looking at this photo makes one wonder how I could possibly say that they are anything but sweet.
If only days like these happened more frequently, it would make things a bit easier around here. 
Well I have not been at my highest point lately. The other day I was having a really bad day. Feeling sad and angry all at once, nothing was going right. I was actually going to make a call home but couldn’t and I lost it. Two of our three phones are able to call back to the states, and wouldn’t you know it all the phones for both were dead. Our German house phone has the battery life of about twelve hours. So basically if I don’t have it on the charger all day or during the night it will be dead when I need it. The other phone has two cordless phones and one of them had been shoved behind my monitor by a certain toddler residing in this house, and the other was taken off the charger beside the TV, actually the charger itself was missing, the phone was lying on the floor behind the TV stand it sits on, dead. This is when I lost my cool and had to just go to my room and let it out alone. Of course Cailey couldn’t let me do that. She kept opening my door and either laughing or demanding juice. She WOULD NOT leave me be for a few minutes. I finally sat on my floor to block my door so I could have a moment to cool down. She was really angering me at this point and I needed to cool off before seeing her.
Of course it’s not like this every day. I have occupied some of my free time with my sewing machine. I still have a couple more projects I want to do as well. Here is a few of the things I have whipped up in the last couple weeks. The bracelet on Cailey’s wrist was from this afternoon.

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The bracelet I made is a bit small since it is for Cailey. She loves it and has not taken it off since I put it on her almost 12 hours ago which is saying a lot for her.
I plan on making myself one as soon as the stuff I ordered gets here. (reason 136 on why I am ready to leave Germany)Tomorrow I am making Colvin one with velcro closure on it. If anyone is interested in one leave me a comment on this post. For now, I can make either Schroder or US Air Force. I know that I can custom order the embroidery on them, I just need to find where. I have some charms coming in the mail to add to them, which is why I am holding off on making mine. Once I make mine I will post pictures of mine and Colvin’s.